The Darkest Day in 500 Years:

Dec 21, 2016

I’m not seeing it today.
Today I don’t feel the love
or see the point

Today all I want to do is close
the shades
Crawl back to bed

Disappear
into my dreams
Or into the pure penumbra.

Today there’s no reason
For any of it
No higher purpose,

No big lesson to learn. I can’t
or don’t want to
look for the good

And even though they tell me
it could be worse
It doesn’t actually feel that way.

It’s just me and utter darkness, me and
a solstice lunar eclipse, so
Today I’m not lighting a single candle

Or breathing deep
Or taking a comfortable seat.
Today I’m done. I give up. I give out.

Maybe if I pull these blinds
Allow myself to sink into the glory of
true darkness

the kind that only comes around
once
in half a millenium

if I surrender to this black night
without guilt
or recrimination, then just maybe

The sooner
the Light will find me
Tomorrow.

~Mary Poindexter McLaughlin